Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Emosi, & YM emoticons.

Stable Emotions. . . . .
Pffft


Sorry for the mild sarcasm, tapi kestabilan emosi ini agak subjektif.
Ada orang pernah cakap perempuan ini emosi selalu tak stabil.
Yeah, prolly true. memang perempuan ini banyak emosi.
half the time kita TERLALU emosi.
half the time we're emotional for no freaking reason, and then blame it on our monthly break. -.-"
half the time we don't know what we want.
and we admit that.

that's just it. we admit.
tak perlu ego tinggi sangat untuk tahu kesalahan kita, betul ?

Take me for example.
most of the time, im on an emotional roller coaster.
satu malam I can control my heart as if its made out of crystals. hard.
and the next night I can be mellow as water. easily liquefied.

apemenda yang saya cuba terangkan ni? -.-"
emosi kita senang berubah lah kiranya.

Tapi ini satu kekurangan ke ?
nope. atleast i don't think so.
sebab atleast kita kenal diri kita macam mana.
tak perlu simpan dalam botol dalam hati buat pekasam.
tak bawa kemana.

Dalam malam malam yang agak lambat dimana saya perlu tidur kerana esok kerja ini,
saya teringat pada pepatah yang sering sahaja mengaitkan kaum hawa dengan perasaan ini.
amboi, kaum adam tak ada emosi ke?
cuma perempuan lebih expose dengan perasaan mereka.
mereka lebih berani.

Emotions, are like our YM emoticons.
if we could virtually capture our emotions that way,
people would understand us more. because its a simple symbol.
but its not understated.
its literally frank.

kita faham emoticons lebih baik dari gambaran manusia,
yang lebih suka bergelak tawa, pabila sedih.
lebih suka melukiskan senyuman, tatkala hati ingin melonjak kegembiraan.
lebih suka berdiam diri,  pun hati ingin menjerit tidak setuju.

yeah well, if only you can send your YM emoticons in reality,
life would infinitely be easier to understand.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

questionable thoughts.

don't question what we women have in mind, because as twisted as it may be, you will always find us speaking the same language,
and with experience come and go, we understand.

we just wanna be free sometimes.
of all doubts, of all thoughts.
that clouds our mind.

senyum sampai ke telinga.

Natasha begitu excited bila balik dari bekerja hari isnin dan sebuah telegram yang begitu panjang tersangkut di pagar. mula mula geram jugak and cakap sendirian kuat - kuat. 
"hesh surat surat ni tak reti nak behenti ke?" -.-" 
haa amik bulat mata Natasha O.O bila tengok surat tu dari UM dah sampai. Senyum sampai ke telinga. :D
Alhamdulillah, Syukurr Tuhan itu Maha Esa. 
Tak berhenti Natasha dari terkejutnya. 

Mungkin ini hikmah dari impian ingin menuntut di UK, tapi tidak kesampaian. :D 

One step closer eyy? (; 


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

love hurts, so here's a love letter.

that awful feeling, 
when you literally feel like your heart have been stabbed by a thousand knifes, and still the pain won't go away. 


No don't get us wrong, we DON'T want you back, its just that the question lingers, 


Why? 


Why did you do it ? 
Why'd you make me feel this way? 
Why'd you make me feel so crappy that sometimes the only comfort i find is by sleeping the whole day, and waking up the whole night.


You know its not fair when you can move on with your life like its not important, but Im here constantly trying to connect through all the puzzles, figuring out which piece was missing. 


Pardon the emotional intro, but this is my anger seeping through, because of my dearly beloved friend.


Dear girl, you are not alone.
whatever happens, happens. Things will work out one day. it just takes a little bit more time than usual. don't rush. kay?


Here's my love letter to you, to help you get by.


‎1 box of chocolate daim just your medicine. taken as much as possible per day.
2 box bottle full of smiles to make your mouth stretch one beautiful smile. :l :) :D
‎3 box of compliments for your self assurance
‎4 speed dial of your favourite, 1 would yos truli, to call at anytime, any hour of the day.
5 working assignments that will make you busy just so your mind would be soo full of 'em people 
‎6 pints of frozen yogurt. can ; got lotsa health benefits as said in the advertisement, cannot baskin robbin. unhealty. (;
‎7 packets of tissues if your pearls threaten to drop from time to time
‎8 movies comprising of actions, bollywood, and comedies for you to laugh out loud. 
  CHEESY LOVE MOVIES ARE NOT ACCEPTED.
9 bouquets of red roses for the soul. you have a beautiful one. ♥ ♥
10 phrases from me. starting with, "I love you girl be strong imma always be here" 



So this is my love letter to my dearly beloved.


Write one for yourself. (:




Happiness.

Happiness is your choice, not chosen for you . 

Dan dengan kata - kata ini saya berpegang untuk diri saya. and so, i REFUSE to feel insecure, hesitant, or intimidated to go back to class. 
(okay tipu maybe a little intimidated.) 

Tapi oh Tuhan , 
Dia sahaja lah yang tahu betapa gembiranya hati ini bila dapat something yang sha nak for so long, 
dapat masuk Uni yang sha mimpi mimpi kan for a long time. 
I'm content with what I have now, and whatever obstacles that come along, i'll embrace it and go through with it. 
InsyaAllah. 

I want this. 
I want to keep what I have, 
Sha tak nak small things, or people be in the way of something i've dreamt for a god know entah berapa lama. 

Buka Buku Baru ? 
 3 B ? 
hahaha

takmo dah buat vows vows sebab saya x ikut pun. *sedih kerana fail dengan misi sendiri* 
hahaha. 
but I only wish, 
with whatever adventure imma go through these passing days, 
I'll go through it with grace and confidence. 
ecehh seperti epik ala - queen elizabeth  gitu. 
hahahaha. 

I wonder , 

can i cope with the tough pressure? 

here's a saying, 


What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. 


Watch out World, 
Im coming out with a bang, 
and I'm not gonna slow down. 
(;



Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I Tell The Harsh Truth.

What you think, your opinions, be careful, be aware. because despite what you think, it does matter to others. Whatever image, Whatever words you want to say, Think before you say it. 

Sebab kadang - kadang we got caught up in the moment, kita lupa.
Like Hellooo? 
You're not the only one livin' in this circular orb. 

hehs sebenarnya entry ni bukan ini sebenarnya point saye. ter emosi kejap. but its relatable i guess sebab what I do want to say, What I do want to show is the harsh reality. 

Girls, ouh dear girls. be aware. take care of yourselves. 
I count myself in as well. 
Because even i don't know what i might be capable of. 
like i said,
we get caught up in the moment. 
and i can't help but think that this picture screams my attention. 
The harsh truth of it all. 
Its overwhelming its scary. 


See , See, Seeeeee????

Do you get this picturee? please say you do. please say you do.
Cause I didn't get it as first though. 
So look closely. 



Because people do not understand, that a girl waits, and when a girl loves,
 she loves truly. (: 

Friday, July 8, 2011

Lets Drool (;

HAHA!

okay eventhough rakan rakan sahabat handai tengah feeling korea la kan, sha masih bercinta dengan Hollywood Hunks.
And its not a wonder.
They're sexy, adorable and buff.
hehehe.

come, lets take a look at my favourites. (;
The Sexy Vampire. Siapa tak suka? HIHI

Ryan Reynolds. nuff said. 

I Love him, and I love his wife, and I love them together. and they  have a cute kid together. 

This is the new Captain America. and the Face of Gucci Guilty.  Chris Evan

Hahahaha. Imma belieber. Don't deny his cuteness okay. ;)


Okay so that sums up my Top 5. EHH! 
But wait im not done yet. 
This is my Top favourite none can compare dia punya face memang utterly handsome,
my future husband. Hehs. ;D



Meet my Current secret Lover, the one and only Matt Lanter. hikhik. : D
Thus I end my blog tonight with a basket full of sweet dreams. hihihi

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Out of Hiding.

I broke up. 
So that explains why I haven't been myself lately. 
But now I'm not gonna hide from others and pretend that everything's okay for me anymore. 
Cause now i'm admitting that I was hurt, rather than pretending to others that everything is okay. 
it's not. 
 
Saya sakit. Saya jatuh. Saya diam. Saya marah. dan ada pada satu tahap, saya lari. 
Saya senyum, gelak, gembira semua pun untuk lupakan hati sendiri. 
Tapi sekarang saya sedar, ada olrang lebih teruk keadaan mereka dari saya. 
Ada orang, hilang orang yang dia sayang dalam keadaan yang lebih bruttal dari saya yang hanya baru nak kenal maksud sayang tu.
dan mengenangkan itu, saya tarik nafas, . . . and let go. 

Believe me, 
I've tried, and I'm trying. So don't push me and give me time. 

Mungkin, 
Dia dah lupa. 
Mungkin, 
Dia dah memang tak ada perasaan pada shaa. 
Dia dah lupa. 
Dia dah focuskan diri untuk benda lebih penting. 
Takpe. 
Shaa okay. jangan risau. 
shaa langsung taknak harapkan seseorang yang dah lupakan sha. 
cukuplah sekali tu. cukup dengan harapan sha doakan yang terbaik untuk dia dan shasha sendiri. 

Tapi jangan samakan kita berdua. 
jangan samakan tahap, had, kelajuan kita berdua untuk terus move on. 
Cause God knows, shasha sayang dia. 

Shasha mengaku, 
sayang dia. 
full stop. 
no other reason. 
because at the time, 
I thought I don't need any other reason to be. 


Shasha tahu capability diri sendiri. 
When I love, I love hard, no holding back, no half measures. 
hahaha. *gelakkan diri sendiri* 
and when I fell, I crashed and burn. 
I turn to a ghost, 
a girl I don't recognize in the mirrors. 
Shasha menangis.
Sampaikan rasanya bantal asyik basah setiap malam. 
mata lebam. 
muka pucat. 

Marah! 
marah dengan diri sendiri yang at the time rasakan diri ni lemah. 
kalah pada perasaan sendiri. 

But its okay, truly it is. 
cause maybe mungkin sekarang shasha rasa ini satu liabiliti. 
but I know its not. 
Mungkin, 
One fine day, I'll find that real special person who deserves every bit of this love. 

So now, If ever I cry, I miss, I run. 
don't let my hand go. 
Just hold me through. 
cause all i need now is your silent support. 
not a basket full of words, 
I can get those in tumblr. 
hehe. 
lend me your shoulder. 
and in time, 
Imma be alright.


Kita jatuh. Kita sakit. Kita salahkan cinta.
padahal, 
dia tunjukkan kita, 
kita satu langkah lagi dekat untuk cari the right person untuk kita. 

P.s
Time heals all wound. ;)